I got an email on my work email from my boss regarding an EdD program opening up next summer. (Not to get too excited, he sent it to everyone - in spite of telling me- and probably anyone else who asks - that entering a doctorate program is not worth it! He's in the middle of his final throes of his own doctoral program).
When I first was hired at my current job, I was so excited to find out that one of our benefits is help with tuition for further professional study. Being the big softie that I am, I could feel the tears prickling at the back of my eyes, because I have always wanted my doctorate, and I have always come back to the conclusion that it is just too expensive, and that I am getting too old for it to pay itself back. I thought, maybe, with the generous help this organization gives, I could do it anyway.
However, I have two kids in college - and when they get out, two more will enter in, so really, even with the help, it's not something I can rationalize. I would have to leave the classroom to make it worthwhile, because, folks, I am ridiculously gifted in the educational credits department (still paying for the last one, as a matter of fact), and getting more credits won't move me up any teacher scale. On the other hand, it will make me eligible for administrative jobs. I have to decide whether that's what I want to do.
Some days, I love my job and the kids and there is nothing I want more than to stay here in this classroom. On other days, I want to do even more. I like research - that's the truth. And educational research is fascinating. I like working with teachers to make schools more effective places.
Honestly, my heart was joyful with that flyer in the mail, until the tough questions kicked in. Plus, I do remember how hard the last degree was - I had 4 small kids, a full time teaching job, and it meant a lot of late nights and stress, and that was just a professional degree. I also remember my MA - carting babies to classes (mine, a foster kid on a heart monitor, etc.), also working full time (but not in a classroom, which was easier). Mentally stimulating, physically exhausting - and both times, I was a lot younger and more energetic. And this degree means traveling to Oahu quite often, and I don't think, unlike my last traveling degree that the costs are covered by the University. That's quite a lot more cost kicked in - plus time away from the farm, which is not negligible.
Well, the application is due January 14; I have time to think about this.